Has anyone else had a really tough week?
They happen for sure and they’re never easy, but I don’t think I’ve ever wanted to work for myself more than I have this week. Like most people who are chasing dreams, I’m working in the real world to pay the bills until one day (hopefully) I can live off doing what I love: writing books, blogging and maybe eventually doing a bit of coaching.
I’ve never wanted to quit my job more than I have in the last few months, so I’ve started putting deadlines on my dreams. I know the date I plan to quit my job and all the steps in place to help me get there. Naturally, they’re all in a giant, shiny notebook illustrated with coloured pens. It’s beautiful! Plus, it was a really satisfying creative project to kick off this goal. Better yet, this goal has a name:
I’ve watched other people do this in the past. Put deadlines and steps in place and throw themselves into achieving their dreams. Somehow, it seemed like something that was out of my reach. Something that only other people could do because they had the time and the resources. But earlier this year I realised that actually all I lacked was the confidence.
It’s scary stuff putting your writing out there for the world to see, even if at first not many people will see it. But everyone has these fears and our success depends on what we choose to do with those fears. I’ll admit, I haven’t been particularly healthy in addressing mine. I’ve chosen to ignore the fear of failure completely and charge in, which has done pretty well for me so far. But at some point in the near future, it’ll be important to address my chronic lack of confidence.
Right now, I’m excited. About every project I’m doing right now, all the ones I’m planning and everything I need to do to learn how to make a success out of myself. Whatever success even means.
If you want to get out of your job and do something with your life that you’re going to love doing forever, it’s not always as easy as doing it. You need experience, knowledge and sometimes a network that will help you on your way and those things don’t come easily. Some weeks are a slog that might make you wonder why you’re bothering when it feels like you’re running on a hamster wheel and getting nowhere. Other weeks, it will feel all worthwhile.
Just know that not having enough time is an illusion that I’ve thankfully smashed. Even working 45 hour weeks at a job that is gradually wearing me down isn’t going to stop me finding the time to make this dream a reality.
So, if you’re reading this with a little (or a lot) of uncertainty about whether you are capable or whether you have time, take some time to think about it. Maybe me telling you that you are capable and that there’s nothing that can stop you is enough to make you want to try. But maybe you need more than a few words of encouragement. Maybe you need what I needed, which was a gradual process of self-affirmation that made me realise: I can do this.
Warning, it does actually mean being nice to yourself and telling yourself daily that you’ve done a good job. Giving yourself credit for the little stuff will make you realise that actually, yeah, you can do the big stuff, too. Plus, it’s a process. No overnight, magical transformations. But achieving your dreams is a process too and it’ll make you feel like you’ve run a marathon…and that’s just the first few months!
OK, motivational speech over. It’s been nice to put these thoughts and feelings down into words since it’s been such a turbulent week. I hope they’re helpful.
Thanks for reading!