For a long time, the idea of “blind faith” was a dirty phrase. It encouraged ignorance and arrogance, and gave people with bad intentions the confidence to follow through with their actions without a sliver of guilt. I had, of course, been surrounded by the wrong people when I gave credence to this mindset.
Throughout my childhood, I viewed my own self-confidence as something unnatural that I needed to stamp out if I was to please the people around me. Confidence was for grown-ups who knew how the world worked, and for me when I was older and had more life experience. Of course, this monumental illusion shattered when adulthood arrived and I was still burdened with the same mindset. When coupled with the realisation that most adults have no idea what they are doing, I felt cheated.
I began to wonder where people got their confidence from. It wasn’t from compliments, that much I knew, because I soaked every compliment I ever received in self-depreciation before handing it back in a sheepish fashion, feeling unworthy. Perhaps people gained confidence from achievements?
That theory quickly disintegrated after every notable achievement I made gave me only a sense that I was an imposter, and that I had somehow fooled everyone into believing I had achieved something. Where was this elusive feeling that apparently made the world go round?
As I got older still, it became increasingly clear that confidence came from within. The children I had grown up with who had held their heads high, answered in class, and took on activities without hesitation, had either painted a mask of false confidence or had people in their lives to help them foster the real feeling. Without the gumption to wear yet another mask, or a foundation of self-belief, I had only one choice: blind faith.
It took time and an ongoing struggle, but eventually I began to see the benefits of using blind faith as a means of building my self-confidence:
Blind Faith Gives Imposter Syndrome A Run For Its Money
Blind faith and imposter syndrome, while being wildly different, share the same origin: irrationality. They don’t come about by reason or logic, they are strictly emotional phenomenon. Recognising that they are in the same vein is actually super helpful in initiating your blind faith, because if imposter syndrome can push its way into our feelings, why can’t we plant a little blind faith in there too? They are equals, and therefore, if we must have imposter syndrome, we must also have blind faith.
Arguably, it’s almost important to have a little imposter syndrome to help balance out that blind faith. We don’t, after all, want to get completely lost in our own awesomeness. But the most common experience for those with anxiety is an imbalance in which imposter syndrome takes control.
Blind faith challenges imposter syndrome in ways that rational conscious thought just can’t. In my experience, I always ended up agreeing with the imposter syndrome, so having something equally irrational to challenge is one of the most effective ways to give it a hard time.
Blind Faith Lets Us See The World In A Different Light
My first few weeks of blindly believing in myself were awkward and difficult, but after a while, the world started looking a little brighter. Positivity became a default attitude in neutral situations, and possibilities became endless.
It makes sense when taking a step back: being kinder to ourselves gives us a brighter outlook on life. Apparently such attitudes towards ourselves fosters growth, which inevitably leads to contentment and happiness in our lives. It’s a snowball effect that we can really benefit from.
Eventually, Blind Faith Begins To Foster True Confidence
Blind faith starts out as irrational positive feelings, but the longer we are kinder to ourselves, the more this behaviour becomes habit. In circumstances that we might have criticised ourselves, we become more understanding, forgiving, or simply recognising that something we may have reacted negatively to before actually isn’t a big deal.
If we treat ourselves better for long enough, we begin to believe we deserve it. As far as I’m concerned, this is where true confidence comes from: give yourself irrational kudos until you believe that you deserve it. While for some people, it’s a slippery slope into arrogance, but I believe that for those of us with anxiety especially, it provides a much needed foundation of self-belief that we can build on.
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